Not my destiny!

I think I've finally come to the conclusion that being a chef is not my destiny. Sigh! My poor family! What happened to me? My grandmother cooked well, my mother cooks divinely, my sisters are master chefs...what happened to Heather? I even took cooking classes in high school and college. What to do about it? I'm thinkin' that I need more practice, more energy, a quicker ability to chop, stir, slice, and multi-task. I bring this up because tonight I really, really wanted to eat something tasty. So I decided to quickly make cookies. Well - quick and Heather should not be in the same sentence unless we are referring to typing or playing the piano. So I worked for like an hour on these cookies (well - and distractions with kids) and pretty much they were not yummy and I had to throw out the dough because they were just pasty and dry. So then I wanted to make gingerbread only I didn't have molasses or lemon zest. So then I thought Apple Crisp sounded tasty only I don't have vanilla icecream or cool whip. But I thought a cup of milk would work, so I seriously spent a long time making it. I wanted it saucy but still crisp on top. So this doesn't look like a magazine recipe, but nevertheless, here it is. I think it was too saucy but what can ya do at this point. But it sure is yummy here at 11 p.m. So - forgive this long drawn-out blog about my non-destiny of cooking.